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| I met thi guy, RJ's the name and he's 24... (I should've known!) We talked for a while and for some reason I felt really comfortable talking to him, it felt like we had this connection, this spark between us. (how can I be so stupid?!?!) We spent 5 hours just talking to each other with the most random stuffs from his beautiful girlfriend (yeah, he's taken) and how they look good together.. I really thought that there's something between us and our relationship (whatever we had that time) will have a deeper meaning... He even sang songs for me.. (everytime I close my eyes, so sick, nobody knows it but me, close to you and loads more..) he has a pretty good voice.. (that's my major weakness! a guy singing me a song and he's voice is oh so gwapo! lol).. But yeah as they say, "maraming namamatay sa maling akala", `coz he's just the same with any other guy I met.. I should've known! I expected and assumed too much out of him.. One day I won't be surprise if I turn into a man hater, trust me I'm beginning to be one.. I hate guys like that.. They'll let you fall for them and then you'll find out in the end that they only wanted one thing from us girls.. I really thought he was different, he seemed so serious and gentleman when we were talking, I didn't know he'll be that way to me.. Arghhhh!!! I'm really annoyed! I really like him! I really really do! I just can't accept the fact that he's like that! Oh well maybe he's a bit (wayyyyyy) older than me that's why God didn't us to be closer... That's all for now.. Ciao!!! | | |
| Kanina, I was reading one of the threads in teentalk, it's all about college freshies. They were talking about where they'd go for college. Ewan ko, but I kinda felt jealous of them kasi they get to study dun sa colleges na gusto nila, if not yung dream college nila, eh ako, dun ako sa crappy 6th form college! I'm sure I'd end up going there. Aside from the fact that I hate that college, feeling ko pa hindi ako machachallenge. Gusto ko dun sa place where machachallenge ako and magiging mature ako, which I don't think will ever happen to me if I go there.. Hayyyy... I tried to convince my dad to let me go back to the Philippines para dun nalang ako mag cocollege, kahit sa PUP lang.. pero na-shock ako sa reaction nya, nagalit agad, he went "nandito ka na nga, gusto mo pang bumalik dun eh ang dami daming nagkakanda hirap para lang makapunta dito".. Hayyyyy I really don't get why other people think na it's such an advantage to be here, lagi nilang sinasabi na "malaki kasi income dito", true, pero malaki din gastos noh.. ngayon nga lang ako nakaranas na walang pera, as in nothing with me right now (cos of the effin prom stuffs i had to get, but that's a completely different story) so what's the difference? diba? ako nga to be honest I prefer having a simple life, ayoko maging mayaman, I just want a normal one.. Hayy..... ang hirap.. Up until now I still have regrets sa pagpunta ko dito, not that I don't enjoy being here, I really do because I was given the chance na makapag aral dito,(although it isn't exactly a good school) and not a lot of people get that chance. Pero after almost 4 years, I still feel the same, as if there's something missing in my life, I can't enjoy my life to the fullest... Parang someone or something is stopping me.. EWAN KOH!!!!!! NAKAKAINIS!!! I hate this feeling... | | |
| wooohhh!! After like 7 months, I'm actually back to blogging again... Well, I'm so proud to announce to everyone that I'm in year 11 already!! wooohhh!! That's actually an achievement you know... Well it is for me... Anyways, loads of things has been happening ever since.. In school, graphics is actually getting better and I aint got Harrison for physics anymore!!.. Here at home, it's actually the same, my folks fighting one day, then the next they'll make up, they're quite sweet actually... my mum had her birthday last 15th of september, i was broke so i didnt give her anything, i greeted her happy birthday and gave her a big hug.. i dont do that very often, coz everyone here at home is busy.. so yeah.. About my personal life, well ive been having problems with loads of people, i dealt with loads of dramas in my life, and im quite proud i survived... with the help of my friends.. actually i have this friend ( a not so close friend to be honest ) and though i was really shy to share my prob with her that time, i did anyway coz im deperate for someone's advice.. and then after hearing everything she said, i kinda felt better, and the next day, it actually turned alright.. THANKS TO HER!! she's right i just gotta trust myself and BE MYSELF... i had an argument with this friend of mine, like 2 weeks ago, coz i was proper annoyed to everything he said, im sick of all those dramas him and his friends kept on saying and blaming me for it, i got plenty of dramas in my life, i dont need his... i know im being insensitive about it, but i cant help but to be annoyed.. i was just being honest, i dont want to act all nice and that when im actually pissed off.. thatz being two faced.. but anyways, i think we're alright now, so that's sorted.. then about my crush, i cant believe that ive been crushing him for more than a year now.. damn!! thats long!! then when i finally got his addy and that, he called me ATE?!?!?!?! the hell!!! that's why i hate liking dudes younger than me!! what else.. hmmm, oh yeah me and my mate sam went down romford last tuesday, and man we were mad!! we was like singing our throat out and shouting weird things, then when we were walking there's these two chinese dudes walking the opposite direction, then when we gone passed them, i looked back, and the other chinese dude looked back aswell.. then i went to sam "he's buff" then guess what she did? she just called that guy and ask for his number! haha!! it was well funny.. apparently he aint got he's fone with him, so he took my number instead.. the next day he texted me and he was all sweet.. awwww... he was quite cute, he said he's 17, but i reckon he's bout 19 or 20, he's from southend!! we woz gonna meet up last sunday, but i kinda ditched him coz i went to this dance thing my brother and the other's are doing.. i still dont know if ill join or not.. prolly not.. i dunno!! lol!! well nyways ive been typing so much, i gotta stop and do my homework.. take care everyone!! | | |
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| How You Are In Love |
 You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
| You Are A Vengeful Ex |
 You didn't angry or hurt when things ended with your ex...
You just calmly decided that you would get even.
And while you pretend things are cool, your ex better watch out! |
| Your Personality Is |
Idealist (NF)
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.
You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.
You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.
In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.
At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.
With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.
As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.
On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. |
| How Do You Live Your Life |
 You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them. |
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| it was valentines day yesterday, i was gonna go out and be with my best friends *well used to be my best friends*, but then i thought, nah, they don't need me there.. i guess it's true that friends do come and go.. they were my best friends for almost a year now, it was our first anniv yesterday actually, but i think we kinda drift apart.. we're not really talking that much... i think they have their own world now and i have mine.. however, i never thought that our friendship will end like this, i mean we were like so close before, almost like sisters... we share our deepest secrets... cry and laugh together... we spend the whole night chatting and talking to each other... no one can separate us... we were so close that we even said that we're different to others, we don't need to hide anything from each other, we don't talk shits behind each others back... that was before though... now i believe what most people say... that 'NOTHiNG LASTS FOREVER' that everything fades away just like how an old picture fade in years time... it's just sad that it had to end this way... | | |
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